conversations with my mind

take this pain away! how? cutting? the pain helps? yes, i must say it does. what about death? that could help but how to do it? so many options, none plausable. why couldn't he just take me back? why did i do it in the first place? i love him. there are no words for how i feel about him. i need him to live. if i can't kill me maybe i could kill her, no i don't have the heart for that. boy, come with me for a week, give me a week just a chance for week in a new town with new people and no one that knows you tell everyone your going away with the family and i beg you, come give me a chance for a week to try and change your mind if i fail then i will leave you alone i won't ever try to get you back again, second week of the holidays i will be at my dad come down with me? please? one week? do you love me enougth to give me a second chance?